yet again...

today was a very unexpected day...

a friend was having a hell of a time at work...

i found out at my job that through some weird twist of events our building will be completely closed next week - some sort of weird eviction...

and another friend decided that her life was too hard to keep living...

i haven't cried yet - the shock is too strong to let the floodgates open.

what could ever be so difficult to allow you to think that you're done? no, really, you're done.

i know it'll hit me tomorrow and perhaps it would not stop.

for now i'm in shock and grieving for my friend that was really close to her.

it feels too sudden to have something like this happen again... but i guess there's never really that much space in between...

yeah... the shock is too big right now - i pray that i may have a hard time keeping myself together tomorrow - this needs to be released...

i guess i'm a local now... people that i met in denver, that i love from denver, they're gone... i guess this is life to its full extent.