arrested development

probably one of the best shows ever!!!

season one is out on dvd. season two is being shown on installments friday nights on fox (love you tivo!!) and is out sometime this fall. season 3 is starting sometime soon!!!

please go out of your way and watch this show. hillarious!! akward as hell... hillarious.

i've also realized that i don't know much about updating/upkeeping of blogs. this page is looking outdated. oh well.

i'm going camping next weekend. so excited!!

AND there's a puerto rican summer fest next sunday in boulder, which is about half an hour away. guess who's excited?!?! guess who also found a puertorican grocery store nearby?!?! well, nearby if you drive, it's only 20 minutes. it's about an hour extravaganza on the bus. love you, and never again.

bring on the arroz con gandules!!!! so good!!!

like a bad joke...

seven sessions in this traffic school deal (read prior post). i'm halfway through the fourth one when the power goes out... HOLY SHIT!!!! i've wasted two hours of my life in front of the computer and now i might have to start all over again... it is a very painful and dumb experience... but as kharma or providence may have it, when i went back, all the work was saved and i started where i left off... lovely. now, only 3 more sessions to go.

and please, no one use bad theology and tell me that the reason the power went off was because i compared traditional christianity to traffic school... please... don't do it. it REALLY is bad theology.

traffic school

for those of you that didn't know, i got a speeding ticket the last month i was in chicago. so, i had no car, i was driving kochie's and kreg's car, and i was doing apparently 64 m.p.h. on rt.14 in barrington, which is a 45 m.p.h. zone. for the month of may i had to use my passport as my i.d. my friends from work said that i was carrying it around in case i needed to flee the country or drink a beer :-)

so finally i got my act together and started working on this online thing - the dumbest thing ever!!!!! it's the most shameful and fear-based experience ever!!!! (sort of similar to traditional/mainstream christianity :-D

so i'm in the middle of it, wanting for it to be done. here's an example of how dumb it is. they ask you to write the names of five people you love. the next screen shows up with two of those names crossed out while mr. voice over says, "two out of five people die every year in vehicle related accidents - so think about it. two of your loved ones could be dead."

ok, who can say that and keep a straight face?!?! seriously, i hope the guy who did this voice over got paid well, seriously...

ok, i'm back to finishing this stupid thing.

it varies...

today i feel like i'm in over my head. yesterday i was exhausted. the day before everything was fine. there's no real way of telling how everything will feel like from one minute to the next.

i'm still in the midst of the swirl from moving halfway across the country. one moment i think it was the best decision ever and the next minute i'm wondering what the crap did i "just" do.

i've realized what i want to do in life. i want to create beautiful spaces where god's glory and our glory can shine and grow and transform us. now how do i go about to do that in my context is another question/idea that i'm in the midst of figuring out.

i'm doing my best to live out of who i am without looking into what others expect. i do a fairly decent job (i think!) and every now and then i truly do wonder what will others think when i don't do the "expected".

i'm having a hard time communing with the trinity. it's like it is everywhere and nowhere all at the same time. in the meantime i hang on tight.

in case you were wondering, today my roommates and i finished the third season of 24.

right now we're also making our way through the first season of arrested development.

just finished dan allender's book "to be told." almost done with "the mermaid chair". about to start reading "god's politics: why the right gets it wrong and the left doesn't get it."

i want to write. i want to perform. i want to create. i don't seem to have the energy to go about these.

so much desire and all i want to do is sleep.

father, son, spirit - meet me in my dreams.

more of the such

pb, a guy i used to work with at the kildeer starbucks e-mailed me tonight. it took me by surprise just how happy i was to hear from him.

went white water rafting and camping this weekend. love the two of them. i'm an undercover outdoors girl.

will write an essay soon on "carnage of stupidity". dianne, our rafting guide used the phrase and i think it's genius.

don't want to go to bed - yet i'm tired as hell.

i'm afraid if i go to bed i won't be able to explore my soul, which seems to be on life support.

the thought of being intentional with new relationships overwhelms me.

home feels safe.

i'm craving for the trinity to show up and for me to recognize her.

i'm craving to be known - to be loved.

24, adjusting, & the such

so my roommates sharon and jen and i have been settling over the past couple of weeks, getting to know the new surroundings, and adjusting to our new life, which has been so far exciting, fun, hard, and challenging all in the same breath. a block away from our apartment building is charlie brown's and about two blocks away is gov'nors park (restaurant/pubs). they are becoming a friday and/or saturday night tradition.

we've also been watching 24... it's addictive to the point of being sad. we already watched the first season and are halfway through the second one, already wondering what will happen when we have seen them all. nothing better to bond over with your roommates than make-believe terrorism :-)

i'm doing well. spinning every now and then. ok, so more now than then. if you've called me in the past few days and i haven't gotten back to you, sorry. for some reason my phone is overwhelming and i haven't checked my messages.

i love my new apartment. i love that i can go swimming if i want to since we have an indoor pool. i love walking everywhere. denver is quickly growing on me. i miss my friends from chicago. i miss my apartment in barrington. i miss chicago.

it's all good. it's all part of it all.

how are you guys doing? e-mail me, let me know. my computer doesn't seem overwhelming, at least for now :-)

denver!!!!

after two days of driving, we're finally here!!!

as soon as i saw my friend nick tears filled my eyes. i wasn't expecting it. as much as it was so painful to leave my former life it feels so right that i'm here right now.

when we pulled up to our apartment complex, about 10 people from radius, the church plant, were already in our apartment. we were greeted by our friend mark phillips waving to us from our balcony. little did we know that they were cooking pizza in our place and were ready to help us settle. they basically did everything. it was overwhelming in a beautiful way. we virtually had to do anything.

our apartment already feels like home. let's see how the city treats us!

goodbye chicago

the truck is packed and ready to go.

last night i spend it alone at my place. it is officially no longer my home but an empty space.

i'll spend tonight at the moorhouse's and set of to drive tomorrow.

i'll spend today with people that i love.

i've been driving around saying goodbye to the sights and sounds.

i'll miss chi-town.

i'll miss you friends.

grieving? what?

ok, so it's in full blown swing.

it's good and it tears my heart apart.

it's good for me. i'm learning to take every moment one at a time. seriously. i don't really know what tomorrow will look like. i really don't.

one moment at a time.

the apprentice

so kendra won.

this was one that went to the task itself, and in this case i agree with the decision made.

tana's anger got a little sketchy during the live board room... i didn't know what to do with her.

but the biggest congratulations goes to donald trump and the producers of the show for learning from their mistakes. see, an hour long show was more than enough. no more three hour long finales. and please, no more regis phelbin.

more power to kendra playing in a boy's world. bring it on!!

GARAGE SALE!!!

we're selling all our stuff!!!! almost...

come over to our place this saturday and sunday and buy stuff from us. seriously, do so. we need the $$ to pay for gas for the truck.

330 E Russell St. Barrington


ALSO...

next wednesday, may 25th, the peeps at work are throwing a goodbye thing for me. feel free to drop by anytime from 7-9pm at Gianni's, the italian restaurant at the shops of kildeer right across my starbucks in deer park. would love to see you swing by.

only two weeks...

i've been really angry the past few days... now i'm starting to get sad...

it's all part of the grieving process...

i'm alive.

a great week in reality tv!

AMERICAN IDOL

so glad that scott is gone!! truth is that if it would be based on tuesday's performance, anthony should've been the one gone. but simon said it best - he's had more escapes than huddini. now, if we could only switch around some people and bring back nadia instead of anthony, then we would be on for a competition that really would have no losers. here's my "forecast" for the idols...

vonzell - she should win since she's covers the whole persona of "american idol". she might not be the strongest vocalist (though she's great) but she works the stage like no other - she's a diva!! she could work it for a long time as the american idol.

bo - he needs to leave the competition... he's too good to be competing in this thing!

carrie - she will go to the end maybe. she'll become the next shania twain or faith hill - country singer with cross overs every now and then.

anthony - sweetie, you're gone next week.


THE APPRENTICE

talking of people that fall through the cracks... about time craig was gone. i have no idea how he made it so far...

now, two female remain, one from the booksmart and one from the streetsmarts.

we could talk about how this was rigged in order to have one from each team at the end, how it was rigged to have a woman be the next apprentice, etc, etc, etc. let's just celebrate that a woman will be the next apprentice!!

as for a forecast... i don't know, too close to tell. tana has something about her that's assertive and kick ass. kendra has a fire within her. we will definetly need to see next week.

there is a sense of comfort in what is familiar...

and random enough there's a sense of comfort in the unknown, the unexpected.

there's a little adventure and mischieve that adds a sense of wonderment.

even though we wonder what the hell we're doing.

even though i wonder what the hell i'm doing.

yet another instance of just being.

not over-analizing.

not connecting all the dots at once.

just being.

it's freaking may 2nd!!!!

my life as i know it will be over in four weeks...

i don't know what to do with myself.

redefining life

doug scott, a friend who used to work for axis and who is a GENIUS, just got back from traveling the world for a year. he put his memoirs together into a movie that i just saw again tonight.

there's a lot to internalize... it's like you went with him and yet you can't begin to comprehend where he went.

all i know is that i have a new "favorite movie". a movie that makes me want to rediscover my life and redefine who i want to live - all under the scope of love.

more thoughts to come.

when someone you love is loved well.

today i joined my friend beth at a retreat she was having for the coaches and small group leaders she leads. the topic of the retreat was "leaning into love". when she told me about it, i said that i would love to be there and she made the arrangements for it to happen. i know how hard she and her team worked at it and how excited she was that more and more people were showing up...

the day was beautiful and the experience amazing.

at the end of the day, the phrases you heard across the room and directly to beth were along the lines of, "you are the perfect leader for our ministry. god's love for you and your love for god has transformed us. thank you."

now that's powerful.

i met beth about 5 years ago as i was trying to figure out if moving to chicago was what i wanted to do. knowing that she would be moving at the same time that i was made it feel like i already had friends up here. and i wasn't wrong. she and her family have become my "surrogate" family, and for that i'm so grateful.

and one of the best feelings in the world is when you witness someone you love being loved by those she loves and leads.

i'm so thankful i took part of today.

THE SHANIA TWAIN SONG!!!!

re: previous post

"love the way you love me" was the song on the radio as i drove home from the grocery store... i do know almost the whole thing...

and so do you...

random ranting about culture

ok, here's a few things that i'm feeling about tv and the such... very random... you've been forwarned...

AMERICAN IDOL

what the crap is the scott guy still doing there?!?!?!? america, learn to recognize talent and vote for them.... it's almost like i need to vote for everyone BUT the person that sucked... they should change the premise... at least til he's gone, we need to be voting not for the best, but for the person who needs to be casted out... and what's up with vonzell being in the bottom three?!??!!? she is not my favorite AND i agree that every week she gets better, just like nikko, except that we won't be able to see where he could go because america chose to keep someone who gets worst and worst every week. and what's up with nadia being in the bottom three for two weeks in a row?!?! in the words of napoleon, "GOOOOHHH!!! IDIOT!!!!!!"

SHANIA TWAIN

i was driving home from the grocery store last night (thank you moorhouses for your vehicle!) and one of shania's song was on the radio - i really can't remember which one right now. i started singing along... i was impressed at how much of the song i knew by heart. i've never considered myself a shania twain fan. and then it dawned on me: i secretly love shania twain... and so does everyone else!!!! i don't think many people will admit to it. i don't think i still would, just like how i keep telling everyone i don't watch the apprentice anymore because it's dumb but secretly await thursday nights!! but when one of her songs comes up on the radio - everyone in the car will sing along, you will have a difficult time changing the station, both men and women!!! and if you've ever helped plan a wedding - even if you don't really consider it, one of her songs pops into your mind as a possible song to play during it. face it, we all love shania twain and her humble origins in canada as she lost her parents and raised her family basically on her own (thanks E! and VH1!!!)

THE OFFICE - THE SILENT NARRATOR

i LOVE the new show on nbc "the office". the boss is not intentionally an asshole, he just happens to be one! part of the genius is it's documentary style. and i love the documentary style!! from christopher guest to scrubs, where jd is the only one aware of the camera, to arrested development where the narrator has a third point of view and no interaction (LOVE ron howard!) here's the twist of the office. the narrator is the camera... they never say anything - and they are all aware of their presence. from pam saying this week, "oh, would you like for me to repeat the messeages that i told you early for them" as she compicously looks at the camera to the awkardness of well timed silent pauses... the show is pure genius. i was a little apprehensive after the pilot. i thought it was funny but didn't really see the potential of this lasting for seasons... but as a former member of cube farm now i know there's so much more from where that came from... if you haven't seen this show, think of it as the movie office space meeting the show arrested development... pure genius.

I STILL AM IN LOVE WITH JON STEWART!!!!

that's really all i have to say about this one - very intellectually and sexually attracted.

that's all i have for now... i'll keep ranting later...

it just makes sense

i got back from denver yesterday, about 36 hours after i was supposed to. missing a flight by 3 minutes, only flight available next day at 6am, that being delayed for three hours, "el" train delayed as well... seriously, i should've driven home :-D

we found an apartment!! it is official, we're moving may 31st!!! it's extremely exciting and nerve rocking and sad all at the same time. i will miss my friends here, i will miss barrington (not their police department, they suck!!!), i will miss chicago. did i mention my friends?

the best part of it all is that in the midst of the tornado (to use this past weekend's analogy) there's so much peace. this next steps feels good. it just makes sense.

i can't describe it. it just does.

so, the next 8 weeks are all about being with my friends!!!